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Remember the story of the Emperor with no clothes, a children's tale?  There is a concept called cognitive dissonance where your mind does not want to believe what you are really sensing and feeling because it ruins your inner expectations.  Thus the disappointment at the First Union Center.  It does Axl no favor to excuse his irresponsible behavior because he is "larger than life".  It sounds to me like he really should be hospitalized to get his meds right (bipolar) and work on his paranoia.  His history is such that I guess it is machochistic to buy a ticket knowing you will probably be disappointed.   I guess the biggest letdown of all is knowing all the talent he has and feeling deprived of admiring it because of his eccentricities/demons.

The point still being that each of us who used energy and money after a workday to enjoy something that all of us looked forward to and it is just carelessly discarded in the MANNER that it was done.  I am sure someone knew early on that this was a no show gig.  I heard from three higher ups that he never left NY.  I wondered why he would schedule 2 concerts of the sell out type 2 nites in a row.  I just feel cheated, disappointed, angry, and sad that I probably will never see them now as I never want to put myself through this again.  I will say that parts of the crowd were scary in their constant negativity and entitlement to act anyway they pleased.  It was not a very good feel to the crowd.  There were others that were wonderful.  I felt sad in seeing alot of enthusiastic faces and comments like, "I have waited all my life to see them live."  It is like disappointing a kid on Christmas morning.  I still feel horrible today after a not too good nite's sleep.  Now what?  How do we get our money back.  If anyone knows, please respond.

I just got back from the Philly show.  What a disappointment.  I have been collecting Axl memorabalia that will soon be put back on eBay for resale.  If he was not planning to come, he should have been responsible enough to announce it before I paid someone to drive me down and pick me up.  What a horrible feeling.