Axl Roses Future Wife

^ first post I actually enjoyed 

I'm a 33 year old First Nations woman from British Columbia Canada. I grew up in a very isolated location deep in the mountains of the Fraser Valley on our Native Reserve. I was even furthermore isolated by my mother who ruled with an iron fist and was most of the time very volatile.  I first saw GNR a month ago in Seattle. At the time I was more excited about finally getting to go to Seattle than the actual concert. I wasn't a huge fan of theirs at the time. I just really liked a few of their songs. When Appetite for Destruction came out, I was only four years old. So needless to say, Guns n Roses were before my time. My childhood was, and pardon my French, a really fucked up one. It was strict, isolated and abusive with physical, mental and sexual abuse from family members.  I first found out that my family wasn't really my real family at the young age of six, and that I had been adopted as a baby. I think that was the very first thing in my life that really messed with my mind and sense of self. Suddenly as a small child I had no idea who I was or where I belonged. That was only the beginning of my problems. As I grew up I became a very troubled person and as a result was always at the other end of my Mom's fists and demeaning words to tear me down. As soon as I hit puberty I became a victim of an entirely different form of abuse and something I knew absolutely nothing about. Certain family members were looking at me differently, communicating with me in a very uncomfortable way. I didn't understand it.  It steadily got worse with a trusted member of my family exposing himself to me, sneaking into my room at night to grope me in my sleep and being pervy every chance he got when we were left alone. I started withdrawing into myself and became very depressed and alone. I felt there was no way out. I had run away several times only to be brought back, begged other family members to help me and no one did. Finally I decided to end it at the tender age of sixteen. A bottle of pills in one hand and a knife in the other, I had finally hit my lowest point in life. My sister found me unconscious on the bathroom floor and that consequented with a trip to the hospital and then the psych ward where I would spend the next three weeks convincing people and myself I wasn't crazy. Weirdly the time spent in the psych ward is a fond memory of mine. I was safe. I didnt have my mom beating me or other members of my family who wanted to sleep with me, hounding me day and night. I was actually for the first time in my life surrounded by people who cared. I will always be grateful to that psych ward for everything they did for me.  It was at this time in my life that I had first heard Guns n Roses. It was the song 'Don't Cry'. And I am not joking when I say that this song saved my life. Every time I thought about ending my life again I would put this song on repeat and lose myself in its lyrics. I had barely any access to the Internet growing up and the tv was always ruled over by my mother, so even when I first fell in love with Guns it was only because of their music. I had no idea who the band mates were or what they looked like. I had only gained access to their music through my older sister who gave me their tapes when CD's came out. Their music gave me life. Gave me a purpose.  Gave me hope that there would be an end to all my suffering one day and that one day I would finally be happy. As I grew older Guns faded into the background as I explored many other genres of music and also for the reason that they had all broken up and no new music was being created. I never followed them, never watched their music videos or seen any concerts. So a year ago I had heard that Guns was getting back together and they were going on tour. I knew in that moment I absolutely had to go. I had forgotten about them almost completely and their reunion tour announcement brought back so many memories. Some good and others not so good. Finally the concert arrived and I was instantly and forever enamoured with frontman Axl Rose. He came onto the stage and owned it like he never ever left it. I was sitting 11th row right at the edge of the aisle in plain view of Axl and Duff and Slash. I have been to countless concerts in my lifetime but nothing hit me like this one.  I was absolutely blown away and I could not take my eyes off Axl Rose. It was like he unknowingly come mands you to look at him and you can't look away. Our eyes met once or twice during that concert I can't be certain but in those moments my heart literally stopped and a heat wave surrounded my insides like I've never felt before. The guy lit me up from the inside out. I just want to clarify to everyone that at this time I had no idea what Axl looked like in his younger years. I still hadn't seen a single Guns n Roses music video. So the concert was an epic moment in my life with the only better one being the birth of my daughter. After the concert I spent days reading and watching everything I could about the beautiful and capturing frontman of GNR. The more I found out the more I loved him and the more I hated the media for what they did to him and how they were portraying him. I immediately became protective over the man who had started haunting my dreams and taking over my thoughts. I soon found myself defending him against these so called 'haters' and got into it with quite a few of theym. Eventually I gave up because I realized Axl will always have haters but it would never change how I felt about him. I relate to him on so many levels and understand him in ways no one else can. Like him, as a young adult I had therapists give me questionnaires and diagnosed me as a manic depressive. They wanted to put me on medication but I told them there was no way I was going to give up all my emotions and feelings and become a walking zombie. I'm taking a mild antidepressive and that just keeps me from feeling the all time lows where I want to kill myself. I have to keep myself on a healthy level and balance for my three year old baby girl. She needs me and it's something that I make myself live up to every single day. She is my motivation and my toughest critic. She controls every aspect of my life and thank god for that. I don't know what I'd do without her sometimes. She is my ground. My earth my life. She also adores Axl as much as I do. Every day she wants to watch 'Her Axl' on tv. She calls him hers awwwwww. One fine day we will get to meet this amazing man we both love and who is our hero

As if

Well Erin did do some things for the cash. Like sell her love letters from Axl, personal photos, their wedding video. So technically she's not wrong in saying that. 

Just now, Jane M. said:

Bill Gates can afford a couple of mistresses, I'd be one of them too. Lol

Welcome aboard!

A Hahahaha I like you! Thanks for welcoming me ? I wasn't sure how I'd be received here to be honest. I was a bit scared posting what I did. 

And before anyone says oh you just want him for his money, no sorry, I've got plenty of my own. I do not need a sugar daddy. If I did I'd become Bill Gates mistress ? Jk

I'm 33 years old. In my pic I'm the one on the left and I'm completely unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Axl Rose! I've never wanted to get married before but Axl has changed all of that for me. It was the night I saw a Guns n Roses concert in Seattle over a month ago that my entire life changed. At the time being from Vancouver, BC I was more excited about visiting Seattle than the actual concert as I wasn't a huge GNR fan. I had heard of their music before and liked a few of their songs but that was it. I didn't know who the band mates were or what they looked like or anything about their past. I went to the concert with an open mind just hoping for a good time. I was sitting 11th row at the end of the aisle in the middle with an amazing view of the stage. When they came out and Axl started performing he immediately captivated me like no man has ever done before. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. And when his eyes met mine a couple times during the show my heart stopped. I felt a warm intoxicating rush throughout my whole body that I hadn't felt since high school. I knew I had just fallen in love with a man I knew nothing about. After the concert I spent days reading and watching everything I could about the invigorating frontman of Guns n Roses. Most women would have been turned off. The partying, drugs, abuse, tantrums, depression, seclusion, and selfishness. But not me. It was like I was looking at a kindred spirit and everything only made me love him more. To have gone through everything he did as a child and not only escape but make it so huge in the world that people start calling you God, was absolutely amazing to me and I applaud him for it. There's things that I'm not proud of and things I wish he never did but I will never take him any other way than the way he is and is meant to be. I love him endlessly. But I'm just a normal woman from Canada that he'll never know exists and I'll have to either spend my life alone or settle. And I don't want to settle. Not at all. So that's how I feel about Axl.  Just wanted you all to know that there is a normal woman out there who would be with and marry Axl Rose. ❤️ Much love to you all and thanks for taking the time to read this.